I prefer reading other peoples blog rather than typing the whole thing,editing and all of it.Its too troublesome for me and i think people don't bother to read also.So i dont even try,but yesterday i found an old note written one year ago.It was a note meant to be for my blog but it seems i hadn't put it up doubting and judging myself.When i read it yesterday i found it to be quite funny and thought what the heckkk ,,So it started as..
My mind is filled with a billion ideas.One moment i am thinking of going and settling down in small hut somewhere in Phajoding,living a life as a hermit.Next,I see myself being an actor in a Hollywood movie,becoming a celebrity.That's the incredible power a kid has,I can switch from one ambition to another in a jiffy.Anything is possible for me,thats easy.Only if you consider a 21 year old, a kid!!!.
I am in my early manhood days ,attending college and i hope to be the next PM of BHutan,Well who knows.I am in a period of my life where i can either make it in life or break it.This is the moment when i make a choice for my whole life ahead.This is the time when i decide who i will be,and i will make that decision asssss soon as i watch a few movies first,and then sleep at 5 or 6 in the morning and wake up around evening tomorrow.What about my college??? Who cares ?college is for sissies any ways.
So about my future life , i am totally confused.I don't know who i am or who i want to be.Its as confusing as to what this article is about.To make my self clear about it,i thought it would best to write something on it and reflect upon it..May be get some ideas from other people, do some soul searching,reveal my innermost secret.As some wise man had said"know your enemy,and you win a fight ,know your self and you win yet another fight"????
Keeping my options open and thinking about it , i thought maybe i could become a reporter,but my goal stopped right then and there. I cannot be a reporter.WHy?? because i am shy,extremely shy.If people were to ask you whats the height of shyness?You could point towards me and it will work.Secondly after 3 years of intense hard work and perseverance in college i finally found out,i suck at writing.I write my stories and try to make it too charming or too funny.I add in too much of sense of humor which usually no one gets .So I end up writing a stupid,trying to be funny article.So my future as a reporter ends there.
Or on a second thought may be i could become a writer.Ill write books on loooove ,on comedy,about tragedies in life .I could make magic happen in books.Then when its all done,I could eat my pages on a daily basis with a pinch of salt in it."writing" isnt a proffesion in Bhutan.Its a privilege for the the rich and well to do ones.
Having a dad ,who is wise enough to let you make your decision and choices only makes it harder.If he had told me "son go be a clerk","go Eat shit".I would have obliged gladly,but nooo,he leaves it up to me. How is it possible that a man of such high intelligence does that???
May be like my seniors,who completed college but are still sticking around saying they are looking for a job.When all they do is smoke up and watch tv all day isnt a bad option but then,i could never do that.I am smart enough to know that my old man works his ass off to sent money and i wouldn't wanna waste it.See that's the problem when you are smart and lazy as well.Your mind says one thing and your body does another.Your mind says do push up,live healthy,your body says eat eat eat and then sleep.
I am still as confused as before and i probably will be always ,but i learned a few things about my self.I learned that i am not just lazy but,,extremely extremely good at it.Halfway through this writing,i wanted to stop troubling my brains,too much pressure on my lazy organs.
Another thing i learned is,I cannot take anything seriously, i started from wanting to write a deep thinking article and i ended up with this piece of nothing.
I also found out , i am fickle minded , i start from one thing to another and the whole thing gets pointless like this article.
Who knows,May be one day ill go and tell my dad"Apa i want to be an actor in a hindi serial".The ones which my mom is addicted to and even do a scene where i repeat one word three times with intensity infront of him just to see his reaction.May be ill climb mount everest,may be ill end up being a drunk or may beget crowned as the king,as some wise man said " when you dream ,dream big".
So then I will stop here with my favorite Shakespeare proverb which goes as "If all the worlds a stage and all men actors,i think i would be same as brad Pitt,because i think i got the ex factor".Pointless right,i know.I couldn't help it.
